My trip to Japan seems to be a "get-away" from reality. Not that I was running away, but I was holding back thoughts about the fall, the new school term, co-op, and how my life is going to be different. I wish I was back in Japan. Then I wouldn't have to think about these things and frown. I wonder if my life is meaningless. I spent the day packing, replying to emails, making sure everything is alright, and redoing my resume - I'm still working on my resume. I'm so uptight about school; I just got an e-mail from the afm professor and he scared me. I read the course outline and I couldn't help but think "am i interested in this?" I am slightly interested, cause I've never heard of these things and I want to know about them. But then I keep thinking about how I would feel if I read a course outline about a science course. Would I be happy then? Or at least be eager to learn? I honestly don't know. It's so nerve-wracking. It's so scary. And all I can do is pray - for the right direction, a purpose, and the motivation that can be found in Him. Otherwise, it'll seem meaningless.
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