how's work?

day 231.
went to waterloo to see my brother for chinese new year. unfortunately, I was really sinful to start a fight with my brother - picking on his nerves and got told by him. I thank God because I knew I was wrong so I apologized. I really need to watch what I say so I don't upset others easily.

I'm really upset and frustrated, because on my ride back to markham, my parents asked me if I enjoyed work. Not really, I don't really enjoy it. Then the conversation shifted to what I would do if I were to switch out of accounting. Science. What would I do with a degree in this field? I don't know. I think I don't enjoy what I do now because I'm not giving it a chance. A chance to like it. But if I do like it, would I place work higher than God? I also feel that I have a "five seconds heat" thing - I can't imagine myself doing this for a long time (when i graduate) - I want to do other things! I feel immature, because I know there are a lot of people who don't necessarily enjoy what they do, but they continue working because they need the money to provide for their families. Perhaps I need to become like them, save for my family?? I wanted to tell my parents that I just want to be a housewife..but I didn't cause then I know I will spark another conversation about that. I also didn't because I feel that by the time I graduate maybe it will be the end of the world?? See how immature I am? I don't even know if I just need to grow up. It just feels better writing this out..If I kept it inside me, I would just explode and cry. Need to seek God for this and read His word! I know God has a plan for me...and I know that if He delights in what I do then I will continue what I am doing..I LOVE YOU GOD.