Tuesday, March 12, 2013
Fleeting sadness
!!!! God is so good. I am about to head upstairs and hahaha jump around and sing songs, pray and read the Word. I was very sad about something (I know it's very general because I don't think it's nice to dig too deep into this here). The experience can be described as falling into this dark room with just you in it. So I basically zoned out for a bit, trying to make of this emotion I had that was taking me over. I was shaking on the inside (that's how I felt physically?). In any case, I was sad. However, !!!! yeah, seriously, if I didn't have and know Christ, this would turn out pretty ugly. I knew in my mind that this overwhelming sadness was temporary and will not continue. Though I was shaking in my heart, hands were sweaty, eyes were teary, I knew - I knew that this was just a feeling and will pass. Thanks to God and pushing me to talk to some sisters about it, I am now very joyful and happy :D It's a huge change...from being really sad to being really happy. I'm really thankful that this temporary emotion didn't last long (lol of course, cause it's only temporary!!). Like someone said, happiness and sadness don't last but joy does. And it is the joy in Christ that brought me out of this "sadness". I'm happy because though it's silly of me to be sad, silly to even talk to someone about it, I decided to, which I owe to God because if He didn't encourage me to, I am 1% sure that I'd be in my room crying myself to sleep (sadly). The other 99%? I wouldn't know because I didn't go there! bahahahahaa. I'm also very thankful for the sisters that I have in my life because I am able to freely go to them and tell them how I feel and to pray for me! Yes!! Praying is so good. It feels so good to be weak and broken-hearted (and be seen like this) - because I am still standing all because of God. Ah, God. Thank you for your unfailing love and grace! Poured out onto me! Praise God!!
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