August Reflections.

I've been meaning to post weeks ago as I wanted to write about the end of my final co-op term and what I've learned (yes, a reflection!). I've been really busy, going from trip to trip and now that I'm somewhat settling down, it's time to flush out my thoughts! I guess I will try to categorize my thoughts but they're everywhere hahah!

1. Work
Like my previous work terms, there was never an issue for me with the work that I do. I know there were posts at the beginning of each work term saying that I was really anxious and scared of the expectations that my co-workers will have of me, but God is good haahaha :) He led me; His hand was upholding me the entire time. People can say that I'm a superstar at work but the reason I can be a "superstar" (however you define it) is because God gave me the wisdom, strength and abilities to tackle the work. So it's all Him! It's not a fluke that I'm good at my work and I still make errors plenty of times hahaha, but it's all by the grace and providence of God! Something I will want to do as a full-time next year is to stand out more - be more of a salt and light in the workplace. Though there were opportunities that I was able to talk to people about God, I felt I could've done more? Mmm, I think overall I need to be less shy and step up because there is an urgency to tell people about the gospel. Which leads me to the dreaded sub-topic of full time. I dread it because it's so close!! I'm done my undergrad in 4 months!! I can't believe that lol...I'm all grown up and it's time for me to move onto the next stage in life...full-time -____- ahhhhh I can't imagine what it's like to work for the next 30 years or so...it's so long!!! I don't even know if I can keep doing what I'm doing for the next two years! Haha, but even before I can think about this, I need to first graduate and write my exams....which is another thing that's been on my mind. The reason is because if I don't get into masters then I will have to write 3 exams. If I fail one, I won't have a job. It comes down to that. It's the reality of the world of how the society works in its quirky way. And thinking about this over the past two weeks has allowed me to accept that. Hahaha, I don't usually think this far ahead which has played well for me seeing as whatever is to happen, I'm taking it a day at a time. Each day I will pray to God that no matter where I am, no matter what I'm doing, I will trust - mm how should I put it, essentially, it doesn't matter whether I'm in accounting or not, I just want to be used by God for His purposes. That's my mentality. 

2. Relationships
Someone really put my mind into thinking about relationships, what a surprise. First it was about talking more to my parents about life, which I do agree seeing as they have experienced so much! loll like the chinese saying, they've eaten salt more than rice HAHAHAHA. Secondly, it's about my potential significant other??!! Hahaha conversations with people always surrounded this topic...it's interesting and funny how these talks come and go but I admit that it is something I need to think about. It's okay to think about this but mm, I do not want to overthink it and it's also kind of ma fan :P But more importantly, it's not my focus :) This only reminded me of a close friend of mine and what she wrote...lol what a cliffhanger but I'm not going to post it here cause it's kinda emotional and not my thing to put it out. hahaha :D

3. School 
It feels like I am a frosh going to university again. Not being in school for 8 months is actually a long time hahaha! Technically I've been out of school for a year!!! :O so now that I'm packing for waterloo, I'm starting to get anxious. It's my final term as an undergraduate and this time, I feel like it's time that I'm done school hahah as many of my friends have graduated in my year, so it seems like I should be graduating too :P But this term is going to be hard and this is what's on my mind - how can I balance between studying and doing other things? I know it's a blessing that I can go to university and study so I should be doing my best in my studies, especially with the potential "masters" program and all. But at the same time, I feel like I should be doing other things! I really want to meet up with people and just talk to them one-on-one! To care for the sisters in ccf, serve in caring ministry, facilitate bible studies. I just don't know what the happy medium is or if there is one. Talking to JK helped a bit in that he told me to always pray at each opportunity to serve. So yes! Will keep praying and see what happens :)

So essentially, I can sum it up to this: I will continue to trust Christ, pray and set my eyes on Him. My goal this term is to continue to grow more and more and more in Christ :D Here's to my final term :D waaahoooooo!

"Trust in the LORD, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act...Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; The steps of a man are established by the LORD, when he delights in his way; though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the LORD upholds his hand." Psalm 37:3-5, 7a, 23-24