I need to be still.

Over the past two days, I have done a lot of thinking.
Needless to say, an event occurred and it has come to my attention to really stop everything that's happening in my life and be still. I'm okay physically and maybe mentally - or mm, okay, both mentally and spiritually I am quite confused. The reason I am confused is because I couldn't grasp what's happening to me in my life. It actually isn't complicated. I am just struggling to let God take over of this situation. Struggling to stand back and say "God, I failed. Please pick me back up and guide me". That's the jist of it. I've lost this sense of peace, overwhelming love and presence of God. It's not that God isn't pouring this out on me - it's just that I'm not opening up to receive it. Why is that? A sister of mine texted me saying "God knows you tried your best - even if the worldly outcome isn't the same!". I've been repeating this line over and over again in my mind. A part of me feels that yes, that's true but at the same time, did I do my best? Or did I rely on my own works, not acknowledging the fact that I should rely on God? Cause I really feel like that's what happened. 

I have to say, I really do like these moments of being still - you realize a lot of things.

Psalm 46:10
"Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!"
^ah, so true! I often forget that I am to glorify God in everything I do - so let me be reminded of this everyday God!!!