1. School - it has been a relaxing month and this term is going by really fast. I don't even know what I've done in the past two months...it just feels like I go to school, home, school, home...but finals and projects are coming up in a week-ish time so it means I need to work hard and not slack off (i.e. playing 2048 all day long). I'm also getting really nervous for finals and CKE because I don't know my technicals enough and be a pro to know what is going on in the case simulations. But this comes with practice...so I'll try not to worry as much.
2. Prep course - haaaaaa. I really like this course. I don't even mind the commute to UofT because it's that FUN to learn about accounting standards. Bahaha, I actually look forward to this course because I learn a lot in such a short span of time :P
3. Money - it hit me today that I owe the government a lot of money (OSAP). I was thinking how I can even declare bankruptcy (har har har). But I should be thankful that God has provided me with a family that can help me with some of the costs. Also, I'm really thankful that I was able to earn some money from all the co-op terms I had during undergrad. It really helped ease my family's financial situation (not that we're not well off) but it is a nice buffer room! So at least I can pay 85% of the loan now, and the rest once I get some tax refunds back hahahahahhaa! But yes, I am reminded that I shouldn't always look at the negatives but have a balanced view, so being thankful and remembering that God is good in providing me with the financing I need for school and loans. Hahahaa..but it means now I have to be more careful with my spending...
4. Health - similar to what I learned in point #3. It's funny (and interesting) when I hear from a doctor that he suspects nothing wrong with my health. I think it is because I was fixated on the fact that something is wrong with my lungs or throat that hearing "it is not a concern" made me doubt his diagnosis (I haven't fully recovered since I was last sick). But as I walked away from the medical clinic, I was reminded how I should be thankful that nothing BAD is happening with me. It's like I took my "okay" health for granted. Just because I didn't hear what I expected to hear - that something is wrong with me - I wasn't relieved with the good news. And he is a professional so I should trust his judgment. But yeah, this was a really good reminder for me that I should be thankful that God has provided a good set of doctors and knowledge to diagnose patients, as well as looking after my health.
5. Family - not that I didn't realize this earlier in the year and the years before, but I really value my family a lot. Sometimes to the point that even I don't understand. In some ways, it hinders me from building on the relationships I have with other people outside of my family (e.g. I won't go out and hang out with my friends but rather stay at home or be with my family). I don't know what to say, it's not like I regret or not regret it. Haaa, I enjoy it a lot.
Overall, if I am to end off, I realized that I haven't been depending on God lately and this is something I'd like to pick up on. Staring at my wall of quotes, these two stuck out [from Desiring God - 7 ways to pray for your heart]:
"Whatever it takes, Lord, increase my awareness of my dependence on you in everything so that I will live continually by faith."
"Whatever it takes, Lord, keep me desperate for you because I tend to wander when I stop feeling my need for you."
I really need God; I don't think I can ever be independent, even though I trick myself at times thinking I can be and so I end up wandering away. It's not like I have a solid foundation on my own two feet - it's too wobbly. But if I stand on an actual solid foundation - a rock like Christ. I won't easily stumble down. I'll keep standing and it is He that keeps me going. So God, please keep me desperate to be dependent on You!
"Before I was afflicted I went astray, but now I keep your word" - Psalm 119:67
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