hardened hearts.

day 93.

ate early breakfast with parents at hollywood cafe. did you know?! that they have free wi-fi? its quite exciting, knowing an actual restaurant that has free wi-fi. so exciting. anywhoo, i'm not super hungry so i only ate a chicken salad sandwich and my parents were worried i would be hungry (oh parents.) and they tried to make me eat more. yeah. listen to your parents. i was hungry in 45 minutes. fast metabolism? haha that's my excuse. but luckily, my mom made me food later on (thank you! arigato!)

which brings me toooo THE MOST WEIRDEST THING THAT I'VE HEARD in the loo. yeep. in the washroom. you know how they play songs in the washrooms, i guess, soothing to the ears if you were to stay in the washroom for long. well. the song they were playing was from robot unicorn attack. yeaaah. yeeep. yeaaah. uh huh. yeeep. flabbergasted I was. I didn't know it was an actual song, that would actually be broadcasted in malls like pacific mall. waiit. pacific mall isn't a mall. i refuse to put it in the same category. so i laughed in the washroom for some time. ladies were staring at me -.- but but but..can't help it :P and i started singing it (so embarassing) robot unicorn has sadly impacted my life..

act of love - carrying all those heavy soil bags for my mama! no, i am not strong. but i won't let her carry them by herself, and so we co-operate (like). being the youngest, i never have to do hard work, especially carrying grocery bags and well, heavy things in general. it was a no-no. but now, not that my parents are getting weaker, but i feel the need to help out. so i usually take all the grocery bags at once as my moms paying, and you'll just hear her say stopppit, give them to me, and i run off. teehee. but today, those miraclegro bags and soil thingys are SO heavy, so we load them together. huh, i might even be sore tomorrow.

read the Bible today, and it has to my attention how much has changed from Genesis to Exodus. In Genesis, people fear the Lord and if they were to doubt, they doubt once, reassured by God and off they go to do what God tells them to do. I'm reading about Noah, and its interesting how Moses lacks confidence. and it reflects in everyone, well lets pick on me. I'm scared, I won't lie, and it seems like I make excuses like Moses, saying oh i don't know how to speak to people and such. and when i read that, i'm like ouch, must've hurt you huh, God. and wow, i've made so many excuses in my life not willing to tell people about God.
and I've come to this here that I want to share with everyone (this is one long post, gomen):

the title's MY COMMITMENT AS A CHRISTIAN.

I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed.
I have the Holy Spirit's power.
The die has been cast.
I have stepped over the line.
I am His disciple.

I will not look back, let up, slow down, back away or be still.

My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, my future is secure.
I'm done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colourless dreams,
worldly talking, cheap giving and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, positions, promotions or popularity.
I don't have to be right or first, recognized or praised, regarded or rewarded.
I now live by faith.

I lean on His presence, walk by patience, am uplifted by prayer and labour in His power.

My face is set, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough,
my companions are few, my Guide is reliable, my mission is clear.

I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed.

I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary,
negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity
or meander in the maze of medicority.

I won't give up, shut up, or let up until
I've stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and preached up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus.
I must go till He comes, give till I drop, preach till all know and work till He stops me.

And when He comes for His own
He will have no trouble recognizing me.
My title is clear.

I AM A CHRISTIAN.

- found on the office wall of a Zimbabwean Pastor

a lot to take in, huh? very much indeed. and in this world, there are a lot of people with hardened hearts. just like when Moses telling Pharoah to let the Isrealites go and Pharoah's heart was hardened and God striked Egypt with ten plagues (only read up to eight i believe so far!) and so I will go and tell how great my God is :) PRAISE HIM.

on another note, played softball today in this nice beautiful weather God has blessed us with! Praise God! had fun throwing with erin and enjoyed ice-cream :) we must do it again next time! with jason too! yeeeee :) and I enjoyed some nice webcamming with milton des, becoming poetic with ken woo who is in the loo (i am good.) and kekekeke, jamessy, kekekek, hahha nice talking to you yo. :)

a great day indeed!!! PRAISE GOD!!! PRAISE GOD! GOOOO GOD! GOD IS GOOD. oh so all the time. Praise God.