winter retreat 2011

winter retreat 2011 @ o + □ + ranch (circle square ranch)

being transformed by the gospel's power.
sounds powerful no? because it is.

I learned a lot about myself during retreat. One thing that stood out was my inability to communicate with others. I feel that when it is something personal, I can't talk; I can't express myself. Then I become upset. I panic. I find it so hard. This is something I need and want to work on. However, I'm grateful that I realize this and that I'm writing this out - so I can refer back and see if I've changed.

I can say that I am transformed or am transforming. I am transformed in that I am able to let God be my God, to give up the feelings I have, or what I feel is best for me, and what I think satisfies me. I am no longer giving into what I want but to let God have complete control over me. I understand that I can't satisfy myself with what I believe is good for me when God knows what is best for me. And that is my prayer.