if you can only take away the pain

and God does take away the pain!
Praise God :) I had terrible cramps today and still do, and it didn't help with all the overwhelming emotions I had. What does that equal? a breakdown. but at least I was able to put a lot of things into perspective - you know, the whole crying and tugging on your blankets kind of thing. It makes you think. I would consider this also as a cry out to God. Not really a cry of why did this and that happen, more of a future thing :P Sometimes I link the pain I receive from my cramps to the sins that I've committed many times. The worse it is (or the more sins I've committed), the more painful it is. But the pain I suffer never matches the pain Jesus felt when nailed on the cross. Mine is a tiny tiny tiny little speck of pain! and I'm already crying. That's why humans are forever less superior than God! Other than that, while being emotion and everything, I really wondered if he would actually care that I'm pain. As much as I wanted to call or even talk to him, I feel as though I am in no position to do so. It's quite disheartening. I'll never be able to figure it out (yet).

and PRAISE GOD! I had an interesting evening. I thought this evening will be really boring, but God answered yet another prayer! I promised the person not to tell anyone but I want to write vaguely about my experience. Really, God, hands up to you, because if it weren't for You; I would've been a terrible sister in Christ. But no! You led me by Your spirit and used me to talk to the person. To let him/her (ahhahaa) know the reason behind sufferings, why things are unfair, and the difference of knowing and not knowing a God. Really a blessed evening, because I was able to converse with this person, to allow him/her to understand or see the whole picture of his/her situation. For the first time, I felt responsible for his/her safety :P I won't say more, because I got in trouble already for being irresponsible and doing things my own way...just because its "late" at night and I'm a youngest! hmph. and for the first time, I'm happy I don't know how to drive :P hahahaha But he/she is safe, I'm home safe and HALLELUJAH, Praises be to God :) He is good. Our Lord is good :)