past few days

Convocations were :\ since my family wasn't too happy. we were really happy when my brother actually graduated, but after we left loo....hahah it was okay ><
I cried in the morning actually, because I was really angry at my sister that she didn't texted me back but texted my brother. and when she did, she asked for sunscreen. I was pretty furious. In my mind, I knew I had to be slow to anger like how my gracious God is! but it was really really hard. In the end, my face was really angry and i started crying in front of my family. afterwards, my dad did something that really made me so proud of him, i was also very happy that God blessed me with this earthly father because he basically had a family meeting saying how today is supposed to be a good cheery day so we should drop everything and have a good time. and that here on earth, we are told to get along with one another, and that as parents, they wouldn't try to do something to harm their children, just as how the children would not do something that would harm the parents. I was really touched because my dad manned up and took over! :) then i thought of whether my future husband would be like that. (funny, how i'd be thinking about that).

[From what I wrote earlier this morning]
In any case, i received my finance midterm back today. i failed. what asian fail? I literally failed. I was really upset at myself, I ended up crying quietly during class >< . and to think I always tell others to rejoice always. how was i rejoicing? by trying to hold back the tears during class because I was completely shattered and hopeless. I wasn't even rejoicing! I praise God that He provided me people who would pray for me instantly (Jenny, Ruth, Matt Cheah). And for them to cheer me up and to encourage me! Rejoice always Doris! Finance does not make me, school does not determine who i am, but it is God who ultimately shapes and moulds me to be the woman He wants me to be! Who am I to be crying! I feel so bad that I cried! Sorry Lord! What's worse is that one thing led to the other....clearly satan was messing with my mind because i gave into self-pity for an hour. In that one hour, I cried my eyes out, accepted the truth, and moved on and slept (haha). Now I am very tired, but on Christ the solid rock I stand, I am able to work! PRAISE THE LORD.

...and I need prayer for my mother...she is not feeling well :s