goodbye first year.

day 74.

a froshie no longer. I am neither a froshie nor a second year ("sophomore"). I'm nothing! i'm DORIS! haha! PRAISE GOD for blessing me with a great first year - great and loving roommate and all the awesome friendships I've made since september. grads: i'm gonna miss you all :( please do visit and keeping chatting up with moi! :) and best of luck!

day of love 74.
spent my day with aarabhi in the morning. I also managed to pack all my textbooks and stuff in a box - talk about efficient! I'm blessed to have met aarabhi, and though I never had the courage to talk to her about God, i hope one day I will and that I will be able to do what God wants me to do (a prayer item!)
thanks to my mommy and gohgoh and keith for coming and moving all my stuff! it got much easier just sitting there and watching you guys doo all the work! hahah! thank you! and a BIG thank you to my mom! for helping me pack, unpack, cook dinner, washing dishes - you're so awesome mommy! so awesome! i love you! :) running errands for you is fun too! running up and down the stairs, bringing stuff up, just great to obey your parents huh? I guess when you're used to it, you don't wanna do what they ask of you. but if you're gone for a long time, you'd love to help them out in any way. so helping out my mom was great! :) (hope that made sense) sooo THANK YOU GOD! that all waterloo-ers are done! I pray that we're all gonna have a safe trip back to our homes and for those starting and or staying for the spring term - YOU CAN DO IT! :)

something that's on my mind:
i think i'm getting hungry..but i was so bloated too! anyways, I think i'm at the stage where I feel like a kid, because I can't make decisions. not that im' easily persuaded. or, maybe I am. I don't know what to do at the moment. I'm told something at one moment, and I understand the person's perspective, and then I get hit with another one, and it makes sense. and if you choose one side, the other side doesn't understand. and its like i'm caught in the middle, err, i don't even know how i feel at the moment. I think it comes down to this: I need time. gosh, i'm a horrible person (no background information about this too! sorry!) I think its really ma faaan, and I don't wanna think about it. but I need to. cause its bad if I don't make a decision. why is life so complicated?! i need to talk to God and people. it feels too fast. i dont' what it feels like gaah! i'm rambling on :( so mind boggling. i'm really sorry.