deep relationship.

day 217.
kettleball class with my sister. I feel so unfit! the instructors are so intense and fit! I have decided to go the gym twice a week - with or without my sister!! dedication right there!!!

Went to Toogood Pond with my family, I didn't know that people are able to skate on the pond!!! It is so cool! I've never skated outdoors, so it was thrilling to step on the ice and pretend I was skating. It's so natural - natural frozen ice. It made me appreciate God's works even more - how frozen water would be so dense so that it is ice on top and water on the bottom. Thus the aquatic animals living underneath are able to survive and be warm. Sugoi!

Other than that, I read an insight article about silence. It really answered my questions about the "how do you know if God is speaking to me". I've once thought that God would literally talk to me, so during my quiet time or mediation I'd have to discern if the things I'm hearing and thinking are from my own thoughts or Gods. Sometimes they feel like what I want (my desires) and I'd keep thinking that. I don't know how to describe it. But it was interesting how Swindoll wrote that he never heard an audible voice:

"It isn't that kind of answering. It's a listening down inside. It's sensing what God is saying about the situation. His promise is, after all, that He will inscribe His law—His will—upon our hearts and our minds.

It's like what you do when you're in love with a person. Isn't it true—the deeper the love, the less that has to be said? You can actually sit alone together by a fireplace for an hour or two and say very, very little, but it can be the deepest encounter and relationship you know anything about."

I remember this past sunday, my brother and I, being our eccentric selves, tried telepathy. We failed; both of us drew blanks, but when we told each other what we were thinking, it was the same thing. I know. Poor example. There's no point to this too, but it was interesting when Swindoll described it as what you do when you're in love with a person. The deeper the love, the less that has to be said (it seems like a warm fuzzy moment; warm fuzzies!). The stronger and more intimate relationship with God, the less that needs to be said? I can only think of it as God already knows your heart. He knows your thoughts, He knows how you feel! I think as you sit there quietly, in silence, you have this overwhelming peace - you become content and assured. You sense God. Again, I don't know how to describe it in words. But I am looking forward to all the warm fuzzie moments or cold unfuzzy moments (can it be cold?) I have with God as I am waiting in silence.

Psalm 62:1 "My soul waits in silence for God only; From Him is my salvation."

http://www.insight.org/library/insight-for-today/waiting-in-silence.html