prayer meeting

day 243.
(saturday)
Praise God because I didn't have to work! Instead, I woke up in the morning to attend my church's prayer meeting. It was very interesting. I was the youngest to attend, haha, but age does not matter! Background story: I surprised my parents (it would be surprising) when I said I wanted to go to prayer meeting. Lately, I felt the need to pray; more than I do normally. I felt I had to go. I had a little battle in my mind (most likely with God) - debating whether I should go. I asked myself why wouldn't I go? I have no work. Sure, I'm tired, but that's not an excuse. The only reason I can think of is I can't pray. Or that I stumble a lot or do not know what I'm saying when I pray. So I was using this excuse to tell myself not to go, but as I was lying in bed that morning, I hear the debate in my mind, "why can't I pray? you can pray better by praying more, you're given the freedom to freely pray so pray! Prayer is power. There are so many issues that need to be prayed for" and "go. just go." haha and my response: "okay." So I rolled around and got up and went to church. Prayer meeting was good. It was really long haha. I enjoyed the beginning, where we read a passage, prayed, and sang a hymn. And it wasn't weird praying with the uncles and aunties haha! I really enjoyed praying with them - they have so much wisdom in their words! sugoi! However, as the prayer meeting continued, I became weary and tired. Maybe it's the lack of sleep, but we (the English congregation) divided ourselves into small groups to pray for specific items in English, Chinese, Mandarin, Church, Missions, Children's, and etc. and I was really tired by the end of prayer meeting. I realized I need to work on my prayer stamina. Anyways, I hope I will have more saturdays off in the future so I can attend more prayer meetings! I like how we're praying for big issues (Libya) as well as small issues (church maintenance, thanking God for the contractors and such)...we need to pray for everything!

day of love 243, went to vaughan mills with the mandarin fellowship. I've never been this shy before, haha! I'm just very shy when I need to speak another language that I don't know very well. But nevertheless, I had a great time - not shopping! but walking around Bass Pro Shop. There's actually a lot to do there! You can eat fudge and look at fishing rods (live baits!) and bears, wolves, seals, caribou, deers, guns! crossbows! and there is a gun simulation game in the corner of the shop where you get to shoot at things - 25 shots for a $1. I played with the guys and I sucked >:( (i'm better with a real gun!) har har har. But a good saturday! haha Thank you God! :)
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I need to learn to not be grumpy when my body hurts! haha! I get frustrated and take it out on my family members :( it's really bad. Lord, please give me the strength to handle the pain and not let the pain get to me, but that even with the pain, I will still be loving! Please help me! Thank You God!